What the God Damn... School Sucks. [08 Jun 2004|01:06am] [ mood | awake ] I'm pretty sure everyone is depressed right now. It's weird. But Ummm... I just fnished my art project so I dont have to do it after my final in english tomorrow so I can take a quiz in algebra so I don't fail that class for the year. School sucks. Fuck it, three days and summer. I'm so pumped, but I'm gone for like a month... July 3rd to August 10th for work. But I come back with 2,500 dollars. I'm gonna get a new bass I think. The Fender Mustang. I'm so pumped for when I get back. Warped Tour! Unfortunately I think I'm going to miss the long awaited Blink 182 concert tomorrow, dude to Maxx's car sucking massive cock and losing its brakes. Asshole brakes... Whatever. Atleast know I don't have to make up any finals. Music is so good. I say that every time I write in this... but seriously, it's so true. Pink Floyd is what I'm really into right now, and the Grateful Dead, people probably think I'm a loser... haha I do not care though, it's so good. Saturday is gonna be sweet as hell. With my brand new invention I'm pumped to try out. *Evil Laughter* Zan, Jake, and Conor are prolly the funnest people to ahng out with. Even Tea actually, she's fun too. I wanna hang out with all of them more. Also Dustin, I miss him. But I'm gonna go sit on my couch and finish writing a song... Bon Voya`ge... ~Gabe post comment

"...and I'm staring straight into your eyes..." [06 Jun 2004|10:31pm] [ mood | lonely ] I am so bored right now. But I'm not really, cuz I'm getting alot of things off of my mind by writing a song. I only have like 2 verses done and I feel way better. I can't really write the song in here yet, cuz I'm not done, but when I am I might post it. Music is really the only thing stopping me from going insane, and like 3 of my friends... Maybe 4. Now that I think of it there are alot. But 3 or 4 or 5 main ones. I'm confusing myself again. "And I'm staring straight into your eyes, why can't I tell you how I feel?" Conor and I biked from his house today to meet Zan and Tea, only to find them about a mile, if that from her house. We definately win. We had a pretty fun time. Tea's grandfather is super funny. Scenario: Conor is playing with Teala's cat. Teala's grandfather walks in."You playin' with my pussy?" said by Teala's grandfather(Lots and lots of akward laughter). Then we went and sat in her room and listened to music and looked at pictures for a while. Then to the downstairs to watch a sweet ass movie. I remember that movie from when I was a kid, it was super bad-ass. Then Wil and Jake came over. It was fun... ...It got alot more boring and akward when Wil and Jake showed up for some reason. I don't know why... Oh well, I'm going to finish writing this song, I'm out for now. bye bye... ~Gabe 1 comment|post comment

Guh... [24 May 2004|09:53pm] [ mood | lazy ] Well... My parents said next summer I can go to Jamaica! Fuckin illmatic. Jake might come with me, that'd be sooo sweet... Reggae, culture and weed = good time. If I really end up going I'll be so pumped, but I'll probably end up getting fucked over somehow again. I wish Zan wouldn't move away. But she is going to... I just remembered how much I missed hanging out with her... even though if she stayed she would not hang out with me, but I still don't want her to leave for some reason. I don't know why though. But I wish things between me and her were like they were in 8th grade that was sweet, and I wish I was still best friends with Wil, but definetly keep my best friend-friendship with Jake, he's cute. haha. I don't like when my friends, or anyone for that matter, act different around different people. It doesn't make me mad, it just makes me sad, cuz I am the one who always gets either left out, made fun of, or just ignored. It sucks, but uh... IDGAFS, so it's ok... i guess. I'm glad I'm in to music, because it helps me express myself so much better than just talking, or writing. After writing a song I feel so much better and refreshed, same with when I listen to good music. Incubus, 311, Rage Against The Machine, Beastie Boys, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Bob Marley, Sublime, The Clash, Thursday, Desaparecidos, Coheed and Cambria, all such good music. Oh man, playing music is so much better than listening to it, there is no other feeling. Especially when you play live, it's the new high. It's so addicting too. Things between me and Wil are getting better, between me and Jake are staying good, between me and Kim are really good, and things with me and Zan are good, better than they were before. Wil and Zan started talking to me at the same time, again. It's because they are having problems right now. I feel bad because she seems to be really sad. For work I have to miss 3 amazing concerts, almost 4. I'm missing 311, 311, Incubus and almost Warped Tour, but I took off of work so that I can go to warped tour... ooh yeah I just remembered I'm missing Anberlin too.. damn this sucks. Oh well. IDGAFS, I'm out for now... Bye bye. ~Gabe 2 comments|post comment

Realizing the Obvious [23 May 2004|10:13pm] [ mood | disappointed ] As much as I want to I can't make peoples decisions for them. I hate how I can't express my feelings to certain people without being afrraid of there reaction. Things are probably falling apart without me even noticing it. But I don't care, as long as I have a couple good friends and music to play I'll be fine. I just want things to be like they were in 8th grade. I miss that. Seriously if it weren't for playing music, and not caring what anyone thinks I'd be super depressed all the time. There is a person that I don't think I will ever get to talk to again the way i want to. Fuck this, maybe some people are right, maybe we should just get through high school and start over completely... Nah, that is bullshit. I would never want to change anything that happened to me in the past. If I did I probably would not be the same person I am today. If people hadn't broken my trust, ditched me, and ignore me I definetly would not be the same person. I was ignorant then, I know now that some people are stupid, but I have still learned to trust people again. I can't stand people who just give up on themselves or other people, it's annoying. I think I try to be friends or be in a relationship with all the people that don't like me. I'm not smart. But I'm leaving cuz my brain hurts from thinking. Later ~Gabe post comment

School is a woken dream [18 May 2004|05:21pm] [ mood | artistic ] So school sucks... yeah. The only fun thing about school is hanging out with people. But people don't like to hang out with me or talk to me ever, except for jake. So me and Jake stole Zan and ashley's/Teala and Kim's idea to start a note book where we write notes to each other... super gay right? oh no my friend... super amazingly fun and time consuming and better than class. I wrote him like 2 pages todaya nd I drew a mother fuckin picture... instead of doing work, so I'm probably failing bio and english now... Well Wil is getting an 11.9 in bio, so I think that I am okay for now... I don't like to sound corny, but lately I've had a really hard time expressing my feelings to people, lately it's been through either songs or painting. I think it's due to all of the thinking I have been doing about relationships and sucking and stuff. There are very few people who can piss me off more than Nicole Woodward, seriously, I would like to set a swarm of bees on her while she is covered in honey and then drop an anvil on her chest. God I don't like her, but I do like playing music. I am always either playing music, listening to music, painting or on the internet, unless it's hot then I'm swimming. I seriously need a life. If anyone is interested in aiding me with having a life, I am now ungrounded... So call em up and make plans for me, do whatever, just make sure I don't die of boredom. Ok, I'm leaving to go die of boredom... later ~Gabe~ post comment

Fuck, Fuck... Mother mother fuck! [17 May 2004|10:03pm] [ mood | lonely ] I fuckin hate things. Mostly relationships. I'm always the one to get fucked over, I love it. I think god is trying to tell me to be gay, I'm resisting... I think. Seriously, My last three relationships have been horrible... I liked all three of the people alot, but they ended up doing something that sucked alot. IE: likeing someone else, going out with someone else, of just breaking up with me for no apparents reason. I don't hate any of these individuals or dislike them at all for that matter. I still like them all as friends, and some more. But it pisses me off when I get shit on like that. I don't think I will ever be able to trust anyone again. I don't know why after all of this time I am coming to this realization, but it has finally happened. IDGAFS though so whatever. But it sucks cuz I do give a fucking shit, so it sucks alot. I love the way people treat me, seriously... trust them and I get burned everytime. This is awesome. ~Gabe~ post comment

Best Fuckin Plan Ever [16 May 2004|01:14pm] [ mood | accomplished ] With much time and thought, I came up with a plan to save my ass, so I'm not royally fucked forever, and the plan even reflects some responsibility on my part. Ok here's the plan: As you all know I took the car out and the tire is now flat and the car was parked differently in my driveway. I'm going to tell them that there was a party that night and then one of my close friends, who's name I refuse to state had been drinking at this party. I'm going to say that this person had no ride home except for their own car so they were planning on just driving home alone. Well, being the caring and responsible person I am I insisted that they find a ride. They apparently could not find a ride and had to drive home, so I therefore offered a ride and brought them home. And that'd my plan, I hope it works. I will still be grounded I'm betting, but the punishmen will hopefully be less severe. ~Gabe post comment

Plotting... [16 May 2004|12:29pm] [ mood | distressed ] This weekend was extremely awesome, save the fact that I'm completely fucked. First on friday night I snuck Jake over and we slept in the tent, but around 11 we drove my parents car to zans house and hung out with them until around 3 then came home and went to sleep. I woke up in the morning to find that I hadn't parked the car the right way in the driveway and my grandmother found out. Furthermore, later in the day I realized that the back left tire was popped. Amazing... Then saturday night I had zan and ashley come over, IDGAFS CREW, we swam, frollicked in the rain, and layed down looking at the sky. We then proceeded to sneak them into the tent. We went to sleep around 12ish, we are losers. Then we woke up around 5 in the morning, then went back to sleep and slept till 7. We woke up and they left, I slept till 10:30 and then went inside. I remembered about the popped tire and remembered that IDGAFS, and everything was better, but I'm still gonna be grounded so it'll suck alot. I was thinking about going out there and slashing the tire and telling them that it must have happened at night. But I didn't cuz I'm a little pussy willow. Oh well, whatever. bye bye. ~Gabe~ post comment

I'm Bored [14 May 2004|05:25pm] [ mood | confused ] Hello. I am so bored... Maine sucks. College will be nice. But then again it won't be. All of my friends will be moving away to go to college, some going to virginia, some going to new york, and others going to boston. I wish all of my friends would go to the same place. That would be cool. I'm only posting in this because I am super bored. I hope someone talks to me soon, or I may end up going outside and playing with fire (bad idea). Yeah, I don't feel like typing anymore... bye bye. Gabe post comment

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